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How Ferguson Residents Are Giving Thanks This Holiday Season

Nov 26, 2014
Originally published on November 26, 2014 3:39 pm

The kickoff to the holiday season in St. Louis has been overshadowed by unrest following the grand jury's decision not to indict police officer Darren Wilson. And for some residents of Ferguson, the meaning of this year's Thanksgiving — amid the anger, hostility and unresolved issues — is hazy.

The Schnucks grocery store is pretty busy on this cold, gray Wednesday before Thanksgiving. Michael Howell, a local musician picking up a few staples, says he just wants to relax at home and have a little turkey. Howell's home is right near a string of looted and burned businesses.

"I live right behind where all this chaos is taking place at," Howell says. "I could walk to where, I guess, ground zero is — the police station — probably in about a minute."

He says the chaos was predictable because the justice system never works for black people. And this Thanksgiving, he's thankful he's still breathing.

"It's just enough getting through life when your life can be just taken like that, especially for a black man, you know? So I'm real thankful, just for that."

And about a mile from the Ferguson Police Department, Deborah and Mike Pabarcus are planning to have 16 people over for Thanksgiving dinner. Married for more than 30 years, the couple live in a modest one-story house on a cul de sac with 11 black families and two other white families.

"For me it's just like any other Thanksgiving," Deborah says. "And I'm ... pleased that our family is coming and we're just going to make most of the holiday and enjoy being together."

"I think the holiday gives us an opportunity to return to a sense of normal," Mike says. He's optimistic, but he recognizes that normal life won't look the same as it did in the past. "Ferguson is going to be different after the events of the last few months. It's not going to be the community that my children grew up in. And that's both good and bad."

Good, Mike says, because the racial tensions that were always there are now out in the open. Bad, he says, because the community feels very divided — and the hard work of reconciliation comes next.

Veronica O'Neal is also looking forward to spending time with her family.

"My grandson came in from college last night; my son and his wife may come in," O'Neal says, sitting in a heated car with her granddaughter in the public library's parking lot. She lives a couple of blocks off West Florissant Avenue — a part of town that was hit hard by vandals in August and even harder in the past few days. O'Neal says blocked streets have made it impossible to shop in her neighborhood for Thanksgiving groceries, and the store where she buys her holiday outfits was burned to the ground.

"Fashion R, that was right there on West Florissant, and it was this woman's dress store, and I used to [go there to] get something cute to wear," O'Neal explains. "And it's gone, gone for no reason. And it hurts."

O'Neal says that at her Thanksgiving table this year, her family will most definitely be talking about the events in Ferguson that have taken place over the past few months.

"We will be talking about it, yes, but we will be eating. We're not going to miss the turkey, dressing, cranberries, the potato salad, the works," she says. "We're not going to miss that."

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In the St. Louis area, Thanksgiving will be overshadowed by the violence that followed the grand jury's decision not to indict Officer Darren Wilson. The 30th annual Thanksgiving Day Parade that takes place in downtown St. Louis has been postponed. People who live around the damaged parts of the city have to go farther now to shop. Those who own those businesses have to rebuild and their employees are out of work. NPR's Shereen Marisol Meraji asked people in the community how they're preparing ahead of the holiday and what they're thinking about.

SHEREEN MARISOL MERAJI, BYLINE: The Schnucks grocery store is pretty busy on this cold, gray Wednesday before Thanksgiving. Michael Howell, a local musician picking up a few staples, says he just wants to relax at home and have a little turkey.

MICHAEL HOWELL: And make some turkey sandwiches. That's basically it, yeah.

MERAJI: Howell's home is right near a string of looted and burned businesses.

HOWELL: I live right behind where all this chaos is taking place at. I could walk to where, I guess, ground zero is - the police station - probably about a minute.

MERAJI: He says the chaos was predictable because the justice system never works for black people. And this Thanksgiving, he's thankful he's still breathing.

HOWELL: It's just enough getting through life and your life can be just taken like that, especially a black man, you know? So I'm real thankful just for that.

D. PABARCUS: This is cranberry banana bread. This is cappuccino chocolate chip muffins.

MERAJI: Deborah and Mike Pabarcus are having 16 people over for Thanksgiving dinner. They've been married for more than 30 years, and live about a mile away from the Ferguson police station in a modest one story on a cul-de-sac with 11 black families and two other white families.

D. PABARCUS: For me it's just like any other Thanksgiving. And I'm just pleased that our family is coming. And we're just going to make the most of the holiday and enjoy being together.

M. PABARCUS: I think the holiday gives us an opportunity to return to a sense of normal.

MERAJI: But Mike Pabarcus recognizes that normal life won't look the same as it did in the past.

M. PABARCUS: Ferguson is going to be different after the events of the last few months. It's not going to be the community that my children grew up in, and that's both good and bad.

MERAJI: Good, he says, because the racial tensions that were always there are now out in the open. Bad, he says, because the community feels very divided and the hard work of reconciliation comes next.

O'NEAL: My grandson came in from college last night. My son and his wife may come in from Winsfield(ph).

MERAJI: Veronica O'Neal is sitting in a heated car with her granddaughter in the parking lot of the public library. She lives a couple of blocks off West Florissant, a part of town that was hit hard by vandals in August and even harder in the last couple of days. O'Neal says blocked streets have made it impossible to shop in her neighborhood for Thanksgiving groceries, and the store where she buys her holiday outfits was burned to the ground.

O'NEAL: Fashion R, that was right there on West Florissant. It was this woman's dress store and I used to go get something cute to wear. And it's gone, just gone for no reason. That hurts.

MERAJI: And O'Neal says her family will most definitely be talking about what's been going on in Ferguson around the Thanksgiving table.

O'NEAL: We will be talking about it, yes, but we will be eating. We're not going to miss the turkey, dressing, cranberries, potato salad, the works. We're not going to miss that.

MERAJI: Shereen Marisol Meraji, NPR News, Ferguson, Missouri. Transcript provided by NPR, Copyright NPR.